30 DAYS OF DEEP AND RANDOM QUESTIONS (a series)

DAY 21

"What are some things you feel guilty for thinking about?"

Ending it all, and leaving everything. Yesterday, two weeks ago, a month ago, two-months ago. Damn, ending it all seems so good at the time. The idea is always existing, never fleeting. Bad days are the worst as it keeps on budging that wall, like a dormant storm that lies within, it becomes bigger and bigger. And when the darkness sets in, that damn knocking becomes louder, like hell-screams, wounding my head over and over again.

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